Showing posts with label Creative. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Creative. Show all posts

The Nitty Gritty of Being a Novelist

Hi everyone,
I thought I would take time to let all of you know what I've been up to these days. If you haven't guessed from the title I've been finally getting myself back into novel writing. This has been a passion of mine since I was in my teens, but as life would have it, I've pushed it aside. Life happens and sometimes it gets the best of you, for me these past five years after graduating college have been a whirlwind. Getting married after being in a 10 year long relationship took center as well as building up my career and non-profit. Now that things are settling down a little bit, I've started to return to things that I've always wanted to complete. First thing on that list was telling my stories to the world. I've never seemed to shake that desire from me and I've let it consume a good amount of my life these days.

I was inspired to write this post because wanting to be a novelist and actually making it a part of your daily life are two completely different things. I also didn't see very many articles or blogs written on the web that weren't sugar coated or vague about novel writing. For something that has dramatically changed the way I live my life I can only imagine how difficult it would be to adapt to daily novel writing as a beginner. I hope that this post will help people that are starting out, or feel a sense of defeat from previous attempts of bringing writing into a daily part of their life.

Begin with a declaration that you are writing a novel: Your declaration will mentally prepare you to begin the changes when writing becomes a daily part of your life. It sounds silly, but this was one of the biggest and hardest things to do. All writers are hard on themselves; careful what to share with the world about their passion for story telling. I think that it's safe to say that there is this social stigma that any craft that involves feelings is a waste of time or left to be nothing more than hobby. You need to get yourself out of that mindset before you can emotionally and mentally dedicate yourself to the world you are creating. This declaration doesn't just stop with you. Your friends and family need to know about your conscious effort to begin writing. Whether the news is received with a supportive or negative vibes, you will need to let them know so to feel out the environment that you will be creating in. I started with a few friends and my close family; both were received with mixed reviews. Mostly they will be confused why you need to tell them, they will understand in time why you had to announce your choice to pursuit your dream as your schedule will change.

Second life/ second job: The biggest change I've found in my life is that I feel a constant drain and pull working my full time job and finding the time to write my novel. I've built my proper timing and routines, but the drain does get to me at least once a week. If you are serious about writing, this will become a second job. When I realized that there were days that I just had to write, and I had to dedicate myself to it that day, I found myself pulling that weight and making sure that it was done at any cost. Starting out you will need to stay up a few hours late at night, or even get up earlier to write. In time you will adjust and make the sacrifices necessary to give your writing a fighting chance to be in your life.

Alone time is golden, protect it: One thing I learned really quickly was the desire to want to be alone to write. Pulling yourself away where you can clear your mind for the daily task of 'adulting' and letting your mind wander in it's imaginative state is such a fine line. I've gotten to a point where I know that I need at least one hour of decompress time when I get home from work. On my days off I handle the chores first and give myself an hour of rest before I start to write. You will start to be aware of your time and how to work with the schedule you have. You will also have times when you will have to say no to meet ups with friends and family. This is one of the reasons you will need to tell them you are a novelist. A good friend will understand, and will probably be eager to read what you come up with.

You will need to build a stamina for it: I don't care how experienced or talented you are, rushed work never creates good work. Burn out is also something that is discouraging and has often stopped writers from creating a daily routine in their work. When you start, find your comfortable medium and raise your word count or time writing slowly. One site that has really helped me build my stamina is 750words.com . I don't use them daily, but when I do start writing, I promise myself that I will finish that 750 word count in that day. So far, my comfortable count is 875-1,200 words daily depending on the day and the parts I'm writing. I'm comfortable with the pace that I'm at but after hitting the half way point in my novel, I plan on raising up my word count to 1,000-1,700 words. I also want to add that you should schedule your breaks as well. When I suffer burn out, I promise myself a day or two to stay away from writing. During that time I try to inspire myself with documentaries, going to a museum, or seeing friends. Bottom line - you're in this to see the beginning and the end, this is not an a temporary affair.

Find your routine with trial by fire:
They say that it takes two weeks to build or destroy a habit. I can say from personal experience that this is true. I felt like a zombie my first two weeks. To get myself used to writing I stayed up an extra hour or two every night. I also feel like writing, especially creatively is very exhausting and will wear you down after awhile. The times of the day that you write are also important, I used to think that I was a morning writer but later found that my peak is between late afternoon to evening. To know what works best for you, you will have to try different times and methods. You will also find your strengths and weaknesses take less and more time. I am very strong in narrative and can write it almost anywhere. Dialogue is my weakness, so I have to take a little longer when I write it. Test yourself with trial and error. Be forgiving of failures and mistakes, but be swift to change to things that do work.

I hope that this post inspires you. Keep writing, and your tea close!
Cheers
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The Positive of My Job as a Graphic Designer


Hello everyone,
Well it's Monday and I'm sitting at a cafe enjoying my Matcha donut and Latte (This is becoming more of a routine now). I'm about to head to work, where Mondays seem to be my haven after the busy weekends at the tearoom. As I start writing my morning pages, I'm always surprised with the though of how fortunate and blessed I am. I do what I love and I earn money doing it. It takes the stress out of a part of my life at least, that's something that I never want to take for granted.

At my non-profit I help inspiring young artist and talents grow in real time productions. I know that plenty of them look to this blog for inspiration and advice, which I'm happy that this blog has evolved from a hobby to something that has helped others. I've come a long way and I really want to share the things that I've learned. So aspiring Designers and those just breaking into this field, here's a little look at the highlights of my daily grind and why I find it so rewarding.

I bridge the gap where there is a need: I think one of the things that blows me away is the places I can take a business with something as simple as a cleaned up logo, or a flyer. Think about how often you look at a screen through the day, then think about how often you look at paper. Almost always have these things been graced by a designer, they are like a suit to the business and they help 'dress' the company. It's a good feeling to help give businesses that access.

I'm constantly inspired by being challenged: When I started working for Tea Rose Garden, I was so frustrated with how much needed to be done. It was a growing pain for me to take everything that I felt was new and necessary to finding that compromise that soon reflected the shop the way that the owner always wished it to be. In the end what it taught me was to be a better listener to my clients. I study seasonal flowers to vector into their newsletters, I know the shapes of fine boned china brands, and I keep on trend with wedding designs. These inspire and reflect my decisions and how I go about designing things for the shop.

I work with other artists, which is a great community: If you haven't noticed yet, artists are weird. We have our own strange ticks that only other artist seem to understand sometimes. This doesn't always seem to apply every client, but as for my main client I work with a floral team whic is constantly designing flowers and special events. We understand and respect each others strange ticks, but at the same time we have a strong understanding to be honest and critique. I think that more than anything, this is one of the best things about my job. It adds a sense of freedom and value to my work and skills.

Granted, like any job there are the definite ups and downs. I get just as upset and frustrated as I do in any other job that I've held. But at the end of the day, there is this underlining gratefulness that I'm doing something that I know I've worked hard to be skilled at. I hope that this post helps inspire.

Happy Monday, Cheers!

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Project Italy: the Polyvore Makeover



I'm a little excited about the play if you haven't noticed. So much that I'm considering wearing some of my goth clothing to set the mood even more. Nothing like a dark mystery to ring in the Fall.

Like many women of the internet, I find Polyvore a rather soothing outlet when I just need something simple to get my creative juices flowing. Here's my little collage to pay homage to the beautiful story that has followed me a decade through.

I also want to mention that we are welcoming cosplay at the event. So Lolita's, Steampunker's and Goth's, please come as you are and enjoy the show!

I'm off to rehearsal now! Time to let my creative juices lose! Eeek!  <3

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Thoughts: Lively Competition?

Concept Illustration from my novel. link
The year of 2013 has grown to be a fascinating one. I notice the hostility that was in the Holidays of 2012 seeping across the gap into the new year and coming full force. Be it Diet, Lifestyles, or just plain being the better person (...whatever that is...); this endless crankiness and gloating is concerning. I see it on blogs, Facebook, and most prevalent in the public. I'm concerned of how we've become a society of desperate individuals.

Then just when I was about to give up on humanity all together and hide in my shell at home; I see the spark of inspiration that is unique to L.A. life. Actors going full force, writers finishing script treatments, and live events organized to celebrate interest. Its a corner of the universe thats spreading and giving the glum a run for its money. Oh L.A.; the land of broken dreams and a thousand new ones. People often think that this obsession with artistic careers are all about fame and easy money, but I can tell you as a witness of this industry that its far from that: the reality is that people just love what they do and any form of it is a step to a happier reality.

In response I say all thats missing is encouragement. I've been going out on a whim to encourage people these days, and the response has been alarming. Being in a society that is constantly degrading your worth through comparisons and ideals its so easy to feel like you're alone. I hope that I can remind you that you've got a resource of positivity out there, be it your personal acquaintances or a supportive online community, there is someone always ready to listen. Do yourself a favor today by encouraging someone in their life endeavors. Whether its an artistic pursuit, or some new changes in their lives. Make them aware that you are listening, make an effort to understand them, and most importantly; make it known that they matter to you.

Its so easy to get lost in our shells of fear and hurt. If we keep this pattern of kindness and support moving; we can de-stress ourselves as a community. Then we can get down to the business of growth.
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Tunnels End


Evening everyone,
Something beautiful happened last night. While writing my post last night reviewing several things that happened through my year, a little spark resounded in my heart. That little spark got bigger and bigger with every word I typed, every picture that I archived, every memory and feeling that resurfaced about 2012. After three hours of work at 3am as I layed my head down to finally sleep I realized that this was the first time in several months I actually stayed up to do something. I wanted it done, I had to see the ending. This morning I realized; that little spark was my old self thats been waiting for myself this whole time.


If you read the post or have been following my blog for sometime you know that I've been in a funk for sometime now. I have not been anything that I used to be; rather, I've been almost a lesser person than I was. I just had no real enthusiasm for things, my creativity was slipping, and my energy was cut by less than half. This year was brutal on me with all my completing things and growing up. I was honestly about to believe that I would never be that multi-tasking, energized, positive young lady again. That was until now...



The post really had me see everything right in front of me, where I had gone, and most importantly all of the emotions that had shaped my decisions and reaction to things. I was an ambitious newly grad ready to take the world on, but the world threw me a fast one and it was nothing that I had read or imagined. Did I fail? No. Was it my fault? Some of it yes, but it all turned out for the better.


I was astonished at the change even physically I went through. I never discussed it, but through my depression starting on about April I had dropped 30 lbs this year from eating like a bird. Anything with oil or salt would send me into gagging fits. I couldn't sleep at night from shaking with no food in me, but I couldn't eat. The Doctor diagnosed it as a form of nervosa that was similar to my condition many years before when I moved for the first time. I suffered until about August, when I started to go out more.


Right now my body is just flabby. It feels strange, I don't really mind whatever weight I am, but my skin has gone through hell and back. I have little bubbly bumps under my skin around my arms and my belly which have never been there, but I'm getting used to it. I now live in moisturizing heaven 24/7 taking care of my thinned skin un-stretched and flabby as they often feel sore. The darker stretch marks are the worst, they inflame depending on the weather. My unintentional weight-loss has not been glamorous.


I'm actually very shy about my body, not only because of my weight but because of the abuse I've put it through over the years. When I'm on the job I'm in the public's eye and its a constant battle with myself to push my confidence in my knowledge and leadership before my insecurities. I try not to dwell in it that much, because there's so much to live for other than insecurities. I realize now that this is a time of discover for me, to bring who I am now and what I was before together in harmony marking my lessons of life learned for this time.


This morning I was inspired, a very enthused inspired! I had proven that I CAN push myself again and my mind is capable of intense concentration. This was no fluke or stroke of luck; this was what I had forgotten. I decided to mark this epiphany I pulled out my Nikon and did self-portraits. Last time I did self-portraits was in 2009, I got my first degree and moved to a new house, things were changing then as well.


I call this series Tunnels End because I feel like I finally see the light at the end! I love the shadows that had cast on my bedroom wall in a way to represent time and the filtering of light before me. The light reflections on my hanging pictures also show images of the world outside. I was comfortable to be in my own skin today, and most importantly in my own mind. I never want to lose sight of this feeling and I don't want to call this another 'fling'. I've missed me for too long to let it.



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Thoughts: I am Creative



"I need to be around someone like you where I can throw ideas around and get some back."

The stress of this whole business plan thing is getting to me. I have days where I have a hard time sleeping or even waking up and getting out of bed. I'm scatter brained, and my thoughts fly everywhere except where they need to be. So far what I could really ask for is focus, that is the main thing I am lacking... But through the days there is always something that just rushes to my head and gives me that sudden struck by lightning feeling: I get an idea and my inspiration comes to me. This is nothing new, this is something that I've learned to harness from my childhood until the adult I am today; this is my creativity.

I can't imagine not being a creative person. It's just a part of who I am and how I do things. Even as I started running my non-profit the value of me was that I could think creatively and beyond the technical jargon and budget to make timeless productions and events. Even now as a struggling fresh out of college grad, I wouldn't have it any other way as this is who I am. There just comes a point where a person cannot be defined by occupation, form of study, or even their upbringing. I'd like to think that creative is a personality trait, a noun, an existing factor in my life that represents me as much as my appearance and gender.


The quote above is a sentence that has been haunting me this entire week. My mentor and friend Grace has been seeing more of me recently and I've been partaking in all sorts of crazy. One of the candid ones is making and designing the cupcakes above. Grace's career as an event designer and florist makes her creative mind work overtime 24/7. Its amazing the things that come out of a few trips around town and some objects laid before her. Granted her job isn't all fun and games, but it's a beautiful kind of crazy, a fulfilling kind of crazy. When all is said and done, isn't this what us creative people strive for?

I've been blogging for just a short while now, but what I can say honestly drives me to this type of community are the amazing creative individuals that are found on this corner of the internet. Be it OOTDs, Baking, drawing, or even Crafting; we are a unique breed of creative. Everyone is different in their own way and we don't apologize for it, we celebrate it! This post is to declare this very point: we are creative.

I encourage you to take time out of your day and meditate on the way that your creative mind has changed and set you away from the rest as an individual. You'll be amazed at how profound this simple truth has impacted your life. Surround yourself with creativity and relish in the free amazing gift that life has given you.
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Crossing Fingers: Nov/Dec

November was one of those wild child months for me. Considering that October went like clockwork I assumed that November would not steer so far from the course. Wow, was I wrong! November stepped up to bat with a ton of new opportunity and responsibilities that I had no ideas would be there. I'm not necessarily upset about it, rather I welcome it to be what it is. 

If you're not familiar with Crossing Fingers, I pick three goals for the month and I focus on them.




November Results:
1.NaNoWriMo: This challenge started out great and then other things ran in the path of it. I'm driven nuts that I have yet another year without a good decent hunk of novel. I'd be lying if I didn't say that I was frustrated about this, but half way through this month I had to make a decision between my opportunity and my novel. Painfully I couldn't have both so I gently placed my sweet novel to the side. *sigh* I'm also learning that November just isn't a good month for novel writing for me, am I the only one that feels like this?

2. Meditate Daily: After my first meditation class, I started to read Diana Rossen's book: Meditations with Tea. If one thing I was able to follow through with this month I was so grateful it was this! I've started to feel more grounded and solid this past month sorting out what exactly has been going on inside me and getting to the bottom of things. I'm not finished with the book since it's one of those you don't want to rush, but I can't wait to share with you my discoveries from reading it!

3. Spend less: This challenge was a 50/50 turn out. Yes I did end up spending more money that I'd wish, but since I cut out the urge to spend it all at once I got to do everything I wanted and then some. The highlight of this challenge was not spending lavishly on my mini holiday. Without forcing myself to get souvineers and shop I was able to focus on savoring and enjoying what I had before me. I was also able to get my hand dirty again getting creative in the kitchen and in my art again. Seems like all this time inspiration was right under my nose and I was choking it with luxuries.


December Challenge:
1. Write a 2 Year Business Plan: This is probably going to be the thing that will be taking up most of my month this December. I won't reveal the exact details about the business plan until I'm done with it. But I'll go as far to say that I'm excited with any results that will come out of this plan that I create.

2. Read: Ah yes, so looking forward to finishing up my Goodreads year challenge. I feel so guilty when I want to dive into a book in the month of November because of NaNoWriMo and I feel like I should be writing. So many books I've put on hold that I would love to finish and share with you. I'm looking forward to curling up to a book every evening in this colder weather.

3. Create: After enough practice meditating, I'm ready to get my creative on! Writing, Drawing, Painting, I want all of that good stuff again. How much of this I'll be able to do with the Business Plan I'm not sure, but I sure want to try and make sure I make time for it.

There it is, another month of challenges...
*Crossing Fingers* 
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Thanksgiving!: OOTD and Blessings

I hope that everyone is having a wonderful Thanksgiving! So far this Holiday has been a wonderful time to spend with family and catch up with each other. I just finished a quiet Lunch/Dinner with my family.  This Thanksgiving has been slightly different for me as this is the first in a long time that I haven't had to worry about finals. The college I attended gave us a two day break, but plenty of homework to take home. It was liberating to wake up and enjoy the day and savor every moment of it.  

This year I dressed up nice by sheer fluke. I got this top at the outlets on my Mini Holiday, and it just seemed to fit in perfectly with the fall colors.


 Butterfly Headpiece: Michaels, Necklace: Gift from Mom, Watercolor Top: Lane Bryant Outlet, Slacks: Lane Bryant, Wedges: Dr. Scholls 

 I also found the butterfly yesterday browsing for a new ball of yarn. I love the large headpiece look on my growing out bob. I'll be sure to do similar looks in that style.


Eugene also surprised me coming over in his Linen Suit. I love that suit on him, it just seems to be formal enough; but a touch casual enough for his hair. I couldn't resist taking pictures of his OOTD. Doesn't he look handsome?
Our family usually digs into the dinner first; then we get the occasional visit from relatives and friends through the day. Today felt special in the sense that it was magical. I felt like today marked a point in my life where I could actually look back and say that I had conquered over my hardships from the past. I stand a little taller because of today.

I've been saving up my 25 days of blessings and I've rolled them into a 25 summarized list. Here they are in no particular order:

Hope: With hope there is a future. I never want to lose sight this simple powerful truth. Love: With love we are all able to grow and move forward in this life we have. With love we are all humbled and graced. Family: Though parts of us are broken, we have a strength that comes from our unity.I miss them when they are gone, as they miss me. Graduate: I haven't felt like this for 5 years! I can celebrate Thanksgiving without the worry of finals. I also have a tool that will help me in my future.I can finally say it; I carry my Bachelors.Talent:Where would I find the drive to continue without it? I'm blessed with creative talent. I know that this is a gift and should not be used to harm or offend. 
Home: I have a beautiful home with a beautiful Study and a Sublime Bedroom. Not many have that. When I wake up in my bed every morning, or read a book on my couch, I know that I have something that I should never take for granted. Books: To relax, to learn, to retreat; all in one books are a beautiful thing that I am so grateful is apart of my life.Meditation: A solace when I can discover things I've buried in my sub conscience. I feel more like a person again and I never want to look back. Despereaux: Two years ago my dreams of owning a Schnauzer puppy came part true with a little mut. Since then the other parts of him have given me a peace and companionship that only his little Chizer self could fill. Eugene: Best friend, trouble, and partner. I love him more than can be contained in words. Ad we come up on a decade of our relationship I dwell in the joy that I grew up with this boy thats now a gentleman.
Tea: A brew that can grow with my ever changing pallete, reflect my mood, and bring back memories. There's a tea for everything, and I wouldn't have it any other way. Inspiration: That looming child you never chase but always wait to return. The relationship with an artist and their inspiration is something that is best experienced rather than explained. Blog: My life has changed because of writing a bit about my life daily. I get to keep it like a scrapbook when I'm feeling blue, and a way to share my interest with the wonderful people of the world. Writing: Writing has given me a passport to something beyond me. I am so blessed to say that I'm a writer, much like one is proud of being a mother to a child. Opportunity: I can't seem to get my fill with opportunity this year. With all the friends, business proposals, and jobs, I am truly blessed.
Transportation: Be it my Scion or Eugene's Yaris, I love my fill of daily travel. This is a daily thing I don't want to ever be without. Adventure: Big or small, I love my fill of exploration and the stories that come with it. Azure Lorica: I have grown up with my non-profit. I love that I have a haven where I can truly apply everything that I love doing into one production. I've also made some incredible friends this past year because of my company. The brainchild of Eugene and I, I couldn't be more proud of 'bringing Theatre back to Family'. Friendship: To the ones I've lost and the ones I've gained. They are what helps me shape and color this beautiful life. I'm so grateful for the color friends that I have that chase their dreams and never let go. Abundance: I have been given more than a humble life. When things come from God, they seem to be poured out over me. I will never take this for granted.

Faith: My faith in God has kept me alive and thriving. I feel safe knowing that there is someone out there bigger than me and the problems I have. Revive: Like a phoenix I have the blessing to be able to restart and try again. I love that my life comes in chapters and that there is always a place for reinvention ones self. Discovery: Learning new things about the world we live in is a blessing. This is what nurtures my growth and makes me aware. Lately the greatest discovery has been myself. I am coming to terms with who I am. Health: I'm blessed to be healthy and at an age where I can learn how to care for myself. This truth is powerful. Pilgrimage: What would a life be without a journey? I'm blessed with the pilgramage that I currently face in my life. I carry in my heart the ones of the past and I look forward to the many more to come.

 Have a blessed Thanksgiving everyone!

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Money Talk From A Young Blogger

I wanted to address this subject because I notice a good amount of bloggers are on the fence about the subject, so I took some time to give my opinion on this. 

As I'm new to this side of blogging culture, I'm amazed at the incredible honest community that has created this strong presence online. Without saying there is now an amazing way for people to share interest with total strangers creating unique friendships.

I was drawn to personal blogging because of my web browsing history. Almost everything that I was curious or interested in was answered in blog posts all across the web. I was also exposed to a different attitude towards everyday life. Its safe to say that the world online is much friendlier and united than the strange urban world I live in. Bloggers also made me feel like I wasn't crazy for pushing the creative envelope with colored hair, crafting, and a deep desire to make brainstorming apart of my everyday life.

I never take the straight way through things. I work in two industries that are flexible with no guarantees or rules set in stone. They're made for dreamers with guts, and those characteristics are so hard to find these days. I found my comfort in bloggers, in their strong statements that they refuse to be anything less than themselves. I wanted to be one of these inspirational individuals. This is the very reason that I created Tea Spectral.

About a few years ago I started a blog linked to my nonprofits blog. I wanted to share advice in the industry people new to it. Start a community, perhaps create a conversation and learn something as well. Without censoring myself I have to be honest with you: Article blogs are a bitch, and believe me, 95% of them want your page views for money. I left this scene for this very reason. So you can imagine my surprise at how personal blogging is there for many to earn money. I had a general understanding that personal blogs were capable of earning money. Learning about sponsors, giveaways, and other paid methods are still new to me. This being said I wanted to give this some thought to make sure I know where I stand on this at the moment. Here are my current thoughts on it.

I've started to pay for ad space here and there, but really its to gain more readers and build my community. Standing alone on a mountain goes against everything that blogging is about. Nothing breaks the shy bubble than telling the blogging world that you exist. I've considered adding the ad space option on my blog once I gain enough of a following. It's so easy to get starry eyed at the vision of living off of blogging; but I'm not counting on it. To be honest there are plenty of pro experienced bloggers that have been on the web for years and have built their empire and deserve every bit of praise and cent they earn. If I could have any financial goal for my blog it would simply be anything I earn would feed my creative endeavors. Now THAT to me would be living a dream! It's like giving a kid a gift card to a candy store...

My blog is pulsing with young blood and I put my love and care into it. I love watching it grow everyday. I've even started to have dreams about blogging. Its something I look forward to every morning when I wake up. These several weeks I've woken up with a smile on my face, making it worth while. My blog is for me to look back and see the beautiful person I can grow into through my creativity. For the world, I want to be an individual that stands for being unique and enjoying the little things that make me who I am; flaws and all. I have shitty days, great days, and plenty of plain ones. In the end of it all, each day is a day of my life, and I live it everyday doing my best to relish in the beauty of that simple fact. In the end: personal blogging to me is a hobby that celebrates all walks of life.

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