Evening everyone,
I wanted to make sure to catch all of you before the year ends. We made it! Through the end of the world and back, 2012 seems to be the challenging year. It almost feels like it doesn't want to let go yet, and it wants to put in a good punch before the bell rings.
I've been away lately because of a roller coaster of emotions and news that has been on me like a pack of wolves. I've been all over the place these days emotionally with the challenges that 2013 will bring. I notice many feeling the anxiety; that little walk of shame that the year was nothing you expected it to be. It always seems to creep in doesn't it? Life just takes you by the horns and wrangles you here and there; just enough to leave you dizzy and disoriented. Well you know what, thats ok. Infact, you're doing great.
Think these times like a cupcake. A beautiful, dare I say modern societies forbidden fruit, is bite size waiting just for you to indulge. Its sweet, enjoyable, perhaps a mix of sugar rush and bliss made for you to go for. When all thats left are the crumbs and the wrapper was it worth it? Did you eat it too fast? Or do you ever think "Well, that wasn't a big enough." In the end, you saw that cupcake and you went for it.
Life will throw you personal cupcakes. They're a flavor of life that is all your own. Sometimes you just need to dig in, savor it, or just fall into that little bit of comfort. It's a cupcake! Not a buffet! Perhaps it was just what you were craving and started your appetite. Then there are times when your just full, tired, or not in the mood. You might have to reject that cupcake or save it for a better time. Don't beat yourself up, because in the end it's not a race of who eats the most cupcakes; its if you enjoyed yours. When you put life that way doesn't competition and idealism just sound silly?
What if you hate lemon? Only have a taste for chocolate? Only have room for one? Who out there can change your taste? One can only lovingly recommend to change your opinion. Your taste may be similar to others that you get along and understand them, that's wonderful, share! Never lose fact that your taste is your taste; as your life is yours to live.
I woke up this morning and for the longest time I experienced something that I haven't: I was absolutely satisfied. I didn't beat myself up about my image, what needed to get finished, or that I wasn't enough for my goals. I realized with all the noise and news that comes with the end of this year into the next that I was living. Thinking about it through the whole day I realized that certain things in my life wouldn't have happened or tasted as sweet as they did if I chose to regret or play the 'would've could've" with myself. My life is not an idealist list, or a clock, its a gift and I live it everyday!
I celebrated, with a cupcake. Thank you 2012!
