Greetings Everyone,
Happy October to you! In LA, this is when the nights start to get a bit cooler and you realize you're not exactly beading sweat through the day. It's also when a bunch of birds migrate to the area, or they decide to come out here and there. I particularly love the murder of crows that like to come out, along with the sparrows and robins. We also get the Santa Ana Winds, since I live in a canyon they get particularly strong where I live. When they arrive it almost feels like it's a time of cleaning all of the muck that the summer left.
I've been looking forward to the beginning of the month of October, this is for a few reasons. One is Fall is a very magical time here in LA, the weather doesn't change much, but the attitude of the city as a whole does. People seem a bit more contemplative and careful. Second, Halloween is a holiday that I leave to celebrate friendship. Lastly, I can't begin to tell you how grateful I am in surviving until Fall emotionally. Since my wedding in March, things have just seemed to be utterly insane with adjusting to married life. I've taken all of it in, good and bad, with a tougher skin I can proudly say that I've done my best and conquered.
As a tradition on this blog, I'm going to add my Crossing Fingers for this month. I think it reflects a bit of what my goals are overall and the symbolism of constantly changing. Thank you everyone that has come with me on my journey this far. I am blessed to have your support.
Challenges for October 2014:
1. Build a writing routine: Goodness, I'm turning 30 in February (when did that happen!?), I've gotten married, got my degree. All my life goals before I turned 30 have been fulfilled. It's left me a bit lost (another Thoughts post). I realize that as much as the future is mine to take, it's also unknown territory. So I'm turning to my other desires in life: to publish my stories. Stories bring me life, they make me feel complete. You could say that this challenge is more about bringing my stories to life for the rest of the world.
2. Introduce more post topics: I also want to dedicate more time here, as this has become my little corner of the world to share my experiences.I want to add some of my happenings when I did go on blog hiatus, some of the books I've been reading, and perhaps share more on some topics I can shed some light on from my experiences and my lifestyle. Please let me know if you have any ideas.
3. Go on more walks: I'm a ridiculous hermit when it comes to my weekdays. With an extensive book shelf, working at home, and the not-so-occasional- e shopping and browsing. I'm going to try and just get out more. I'm surrounded by beautiful parks in my area and it's time to make the best of it. I'm also thinking of incorporating this into my meditation routine.
The year of 2013 has grown to be a fascinating one. I notice the hostility that was in the Holidays of 2012 seeping across the gap into the new year and coming full force. Be it Diet, Lifestyles, or just plain being the better person (...whatever that is...); this endless crankiness and gloating is concerning. I see it on blogs, Facebook, and most prevalent in the public. I'm concerned of how we've become a society of desperate individuals.
Then just when I was about to give up on humanity all together and hide in my shell at home; I see the spark of inspiration that is unique to L.A. life. Actors going full force, writers finishing script treatments, and live events organized to celebrate interest. Its a corner of the universe thats spreading and giving the glum a run for its money. Oh L.A.; the land of broken dreams and a thousand new ones. People often think that this obsession with artistic careers are all about fame and easy money, but I can tell you as a witness of this industry that its far from that: the reality is that people just love what they do and any form of it is a step to a happier reality.
In response I say all thats missing is encouragement. I've been going out on a whim to encourage people these days, and the response has been alarming. Being in a society that is constantly degrading your worth through comparisons and ideals its so easy to feel like you're alone. I hope that I can remind you that you've got a resource of positivity out there, be it your personal acquaintances or a supportive online community, there is someone always ready to listen. Do yourself a favor today by encouraging someone in their life endeavors. Whether its an artistic pursuit, or some new changes in their lives. Make them aware that you are listening, make an effort to understand them, and most importantly; make it known that they matter to you.
Its so easy to get lost in our shells of fear and hurt. If we keep this pattern of kindness and support moving; we can de-stress ourselves as a community. Then we can get down to the business of growth.
Hi everyone,
Hope everyone had a wonderful Holiday weekend! This year has been so Topsy-Turvy for me that I'm amazed at the things that happened this year. There are so many things on my mind lately and opportunities in-store for me in the up coming year that I often wonder how on earth I made it here. This post is a little scrapbook of the growth through 2012 that I've made.
My feelings for this year have been bitter sweet. Never in my life have I gone through so many high to low points in my life. I can safely say that 2012 has changed me for the better, and I feel much more wise and prepared for life that I ever was. I understand that things can't be perfect and that ideals are only such and shouldn't be taken seriously. On this cold Winter night I would love it if you'd join me in this post as I recap my year. Consider this my Annual Scrapbook.
January
ALA: I started the year as a guest speaker at Anime Los Angeles. 2011 was all about guest speaking for Azure Lorica and we decided that after this convention we were going to slow down. We almost didn't do this one after our busy production of Fate Pendulum's Project Italy in Dec 2011; but I'm glad we did because we made great connections and friends!
Silencio: I was honored to work as an Artistic Director on Silencio for Tamirfilms! Tamir and I had met by chance one day and within the same year we were on air with PBS talking about the film together; what are the odds? Silencio is an Indie Film that expresses the detrimental effects of bullying.This is a picture of Silencio Jr. where we took the theme and taught high-schoolers how to film to raise awareness of bullying. The mayor of Pasadena is in the middle supporting our crew!
Freelancing: I started to freelance as a Graphic/Web Designer. Thanks to my work with Silencio my reputation grew and I gained several clients from the project. This was the year I was going to graduate so I was able to finally dip my toes into the Industry and try it for myself. Enthralling as it was I started to back away from taking clients after a few months because I needed to focus on graduating. Besides, what I wanted more than anything at the time was to be in a design firm... more on that later...
February
Started working at Tea Rose Garden: My first 'regular' paid job since high school! At first I came on with the owner as her Freelance eStore Designer. After sometime she noticed my charm and Grace and I became good friends. She gave me a small job of organizing the bills and doing the office work. It wasn't much but it gave me steady cash. She became one of my mentors even until now. This picture is Candice, my cousin Jen, and I working on some product photography.
Tea with my Childhood Hero- Joey Beville: Everything in life happens for a reason. And a year before this I had put up a picture of Annie and the Scandals as my Facebook Icon. Innocently I wrote on my favorite band, Echoing Green's fan page. Next thing you know it BAM! I get a friend request from the lead singer Joey! Would you know an adoration letter and a year later he happened to be staying in Pasadena and I asked sheepishly if he would sign some things. Naw, thats still not cool enough, I HAD TEA WITH MY SUPER SUPER HERO! I love Joey until this day and his lyrics stand for so many life changing decisions in my life. (Getting teary eyed...) Meeting and being friends with Joey is one of those things where I can say that I. Have. Lived.
My Funny Valentine: Eugene and I celebrated our 6th year engage to each other this Valentine's Day. We felt like this was a crossroad for us this year as we realized we got so ambitious with our writing and our vision that our wedding has sort of been set aside in priority. This day we decided that we wouldn't trade our life for anything, and our relationship had no regrets. We'll be the funny couple that has been together forever because it is who we are!
My first public solo gallery: As a gift for my 27th birthday. I came into the Tea Rose Garden and set up my years of work as an art student in the halls. My little gallery was a conversational piece for patrons, bridal showers, birthdays, and so much more. All of them over a cup of tea. I couldn't have asked for a better gift! This was also the preparation for my graduation party 2 weeks later. The gallery was displayed until early May.
March
Graduation: After several years, three schools, four major changes; I was the proud graduate with a Bachelors in Graphic Design. We shut down the Tea Rose Garden and thew a cheese and cake party with Echoing Green blasting through the shop. My friends all came, had a great time, and we talked about my art and the future. I can honestly say that it was one of the most perfect happiest days in my life. The evening ended with balloons being released into the air top represent the beginning of the future. I remember seeing the balloons hit the side of the building then take off. Grace said it must mean that the beginning will be rocky but it'll soar afterwards. Her prediction was dead on... Afterwards we ran across the street and went to the pub for a pint and good laughs.
April
World Premiere of Captain Clay: July 2011, I came up with the idea of holding a playwright contest for young writers. The setting was an airship and the play was to be One Act. My intent was so that Eugene and I could stop hogging the lime-lite and promote the art of play writing with the rest of the new generation. Well! this was how Findlings; our now annual playwright contest began. Our winner happened to be the lovely Lauren Bauer who wrote the comedy Captain Clay and the Treasure of the Pacific. This was the first play in several years where I could focus entirely as a Director and took it all the way. I had a great cast; with my cousin Jen as my new Stage Manager and Eugene as my strong hand Producer, this play shined! After 2 years I returned to a black box stage and it was pure magic.
Sponsoring DBoy Productions: Remember how I made connections and friends at ALA in January? Well after getting to know each other my company took a big leap and signed our first Fiscal Sponsored Production Company. DBoy Productions does geek comedy at conventions and in the LA County. Their leader Danny has become a wonderful Producer under our mentorship and has grown to be a great friend all around. I'm proud to say once more that I'm a part of this close knit community. To think this was only the beginning of other partnerships.
May
Nocturnal Notes Project: In 2007 Eugene and I created our 2nd play together: Nocturnal Notes. NN is a romantic play that takes the King Arthur fairytale and puts the characters into modern Los Angeles. The play was named after a book that was published by the two lead characters of letters they had written together in the time they were separated. We've had a small following from the play since and we wanted to expand the idea further. In May this year we purchase NoctunalNotes.com and continued to write as the characters to later publish the collection in a book form. Currently NN is in hiatus since things picked up, but my hope is to continue and finish telling this beautiful story.
Job Hunting: After Mothers Day I was feeling off working at TRG. It just wasn't paying what I wanted after graduation and I knew it was just a small job until something came along. Freelancing was arduous and took so much out of me combined with the productions. So I went on the hunt. I got three jobs out of several hundred applications I sent, and handful of interviews I had. One I rejected, the other I decided wasn't for me, but the last one...
June
The Ugly Truth: I quit a job I had got as well as my job at TRG to work for a web firm in Los Angeles. Sounds glamorous doesn't it? I was a ghostwriter for big names, blogging, promoting, and working with social media. My dream job turned ugly... I was being told to make fake IDs to review products, pick up ratings, lie if I had to. I felt like absolute shit after the 3rd day. The travel was horrid, my boss was a male chauvinist. After my third day I didn't sleep that night, I got an email from a gallery offering an interview that next day and I would have to hop another job in under 2 weeks. I was so lost in the monster I had become. I was fired through an email that afternoon and my ass of a boss never even sent me my pay for the days I worked. I didn't go for the gallery job because I felt like I was losing control and fell into a deep depression and startling reality of my line of work I graduated in; it can consume you if you let it.
July
Anime Expo: My friends dragged me out of hiding for several weeks and got me to go to Anime Expo. Every year I get Industry Badges for Eugene and I and we go to mingle. I've been attending this convention on and off for almost a decade. The thing that made this convention special were all the new friends that I made from ALA and DBoy Productions. It rocked! I felt my age again and this marked the beginning of me recovering from my depression.
Alice & Wonderland: Azure Lorica started to experiment in producing in other community areas other than the library. We did a reading of Alice & Wonderland at the Park and had kids lay on mats. It was fun, but we decided after that production that this wasn't a route we wanted to take.
Sponsoring Project 760 Productions: The day after Anime Expo Eugene had a meeting with Ray from 760 and agreed to sponsor them in exchange for press work which we were lacking staff in. I agreed and the bond began with our second sponsored company. Ray is the head Producer for 760, an art/community press team.
August
Kahoots Marketing: Almost hours after I was fired from my last job, I was given an offer from a friend that his friend was looking for a Graphic Designer. I met two amazing older gentlemen through the course of June until August and developed a friendship with veterans in my field. Men that were sucessful and did what they love. They were nothing like my previous boss. We formed Kahoots Marketing, a firm that caters to small business. I am proud to be apart of this team as my phobia for the Industry is still being mended with healing words and appreciation for my talents. Tyrone and Marshall are a blessing sent to me to heal my fears. I couldn't ask for better partners.
Feel Good Film Festival:This was our second year invited to the festival, but our first year as Press. FGFF is a Festival that promotes positive message films. I think that this festival was a real healing point for me as I was surrounded by passionate artists making their dreams come true. This was also the first time we worked with Project 760, which we later found out was a match made in heaven. Btw, side note: One of the perks of my job is rocking teal hair at a red carpet event. Heck yesh!
San Diego: I went on a weekend trip to San Diego. Something I never thought I would get around to this year, especially without a job. It was a blessing to get away and enjoy some new cafes in the Gaslamp area. I bought one of my now favorite all-time books there in a discount store. It was so simple but so perfect.
September
Captain Clay for the Public:We went on with our second production of Captain Clay at the Donald Wright Auditorium. This was my first time directing a play for the second time. It was also my first time directing an all girl cast. I absolutely loved it and would love to do it again! They were so unique on how they played off of each other that I was surprised when I saw the final performance! I can't say that one cast was better than the other as they had their own separate characteristics. Hmm that would be an interesting post... Oh, and that helm, Eugene and I made from dumpster diving a couch frame. Awesome isn't it?
Interview with Stephanie Barish:Being out of practice with press work this was a changing point for me. I had interviewed the CEO of Indiecade through Skype, something I had never done before. Indiecade is the Sundance for video games. They also gave us tickets to raffle off at the Captain Clay showings. It was a really cool bridge to be made with another non-profit. For the meantime, I think I'll leave our sponsored companies to the presswork...
Fell in love with personal blogs:This wasn't really an invent in my year but something that became a big part of my life: blogs. I discovered Nearsighted Owl for her DIY on a Pixie Cut and absolutely fell in love with her blog. Soon enough I was hoping to others and uncovered this amazing body-positive, fun loving, creative community. I didn't feel so alone anymore. There were others like me that felt that there was more to life than the job, the security, and the conformity. Reading blogs started to shake the scales from me as I wanted to be creative again and share my opinions and talents with the world once more.
October:
Tea Spectral: My blog was born! Be it this wasn't my first blog ever created, but this was my first blog where I felt free to be me. I fell into the lie that blogging was made to make you look like a 'professional' in the industry that I was careful what to write. Now I feel free and even more inspired to pursue my career just by sharing my daily life and trailson this blog. I'm so happy to be in blogland and I can't get enough of my new found hobby.
Indiecade:We covered Indiecade making friends with Industry greats as well as up and coming game designers from all over the world. It was a great weekend to be around creative people again and to bond with my team. I was blown away with the innovation and community that was involved with the cause. I am so proud to be a part of this generation and the gift of witnessing such things come to life. Sponsoring Raging Nerds: During Indiecade we made a very good lunch meeting with Raging Nerds and DBoy, who have worked together in the past a few times. Raging Crow had gotten a Red Carpet pass to cover on behalf of Azure Lorica and had done such a great job! Seeing that we needed more staff on our press team we were proud to add them as another sponsored production team. Covering legends and major conventions like E3, we couldn't ask for a better team.
Interview with Adobe:Another thing in my life that made me feel like I lived happened. I interviewed the Evangelist for Adobe on their future developments in Flash. As a student, designer, and avid fan of Adobe for over a decade; this was an experience I could have never possibly imagined. Ramona High: We were invited to a volunteer fair and had the opportunity to share our non-profit with the wonderful young ladies of Ramona High. I was inspired to see them interested and bright eyed; ready to change the world with their own stories about to be told.
November:
Avila Bay:A second vacation in a year? Wow, I felt amazing going up to Avila Bay. Last I was at this goregous resort next to the coast was when I was lovestruck by Eugene and we had to go on vacation with our families. I was so happy to introduce it to him almost 10 years after and share this unforgetable breathtaking spot with him.
Tea Festival:The mark of the beginning of my meditations. I loved actually going to classes and lectures to further my understanding of tea and the daily applications of this wonderful beverage. If it weren't for this event I wouldn't have started meditation which has become such an important thing in my life. Wrote our first grant: Something we've been waiting for. After Three years we were eligible to apply for an art grant. Eugene and I are looking forward to applying more to expand our non-profit and continue to bring independent arts education to Los Angeles with our events and productions.
Business Proposal: I was offered a business proposal opportunity that may well effect life and my career as I know it. I'm still working on it with a vengeance and hope to get it done before the year ends.
First Sponsor Giveaway: I really enjoyed giving my teas away on Better Blogger Network. This way I got to share my passions with others. I hope to do this again, hopefully with other blogs.
December:
Palm Springs: What's this? Another vacation!? I went to Palm Springs with my family and enjoyed the weekend. Three vacations after none for three years. Not bad at all...
10 Year Anniversary: For a decade, Eugene and I have grown together, learned to love, and have been in this relationship for the long haul. After such a crazy, intense, trial and error type of year; I couldn't ask for a better way to end it than this little piece of history. Eugene was my first ever serious relationship, first kiss, and now my fiance. If anything I did right, it was chosing to stay with this amazing beautiful man of mine.
With how crazy this year has been I'm a bit scared of how 2013 will be. I'm doing my best to think positively and with much bravery.
"I need to be around someone like you where I can throw ideas around and get some back."
The stress of this whole business plan thing is getting to me. I have days where I have a hard time sleeping or even waking up and getting out of bed. I'm scatter brained, and my thoughts fly everywhere except where they need to be. So far what I could really ask for is focus, that is the main thing I am lacking... But through the days there is always something that just rushes to my head and gives me that sudden struck by lightning feeling: I get an idea and my inspiration comes to me. This is nothing new, this is something that I've learned to harness from my childhood until the adult I am today; this is my creativity.
I can't imagine not being a creative person. It's just a part of who I am and how I do things. Even as I started running my non-profit the value of me was that I could think creatively and beyond the technical jargon and budget to make timeless productions and events. Even now as a struggling fresh out of college grad, I wouldn't have it any other way as this is who I am. There just comes a point where a person cannot be defined by occupation, form of study, or even their upbringing. I'd like to think that creative is a personality trait, a noun, an existing factor in my life that represents me as much as my appearance and gender.
The quote above is a sentence that has been haunting me this entire week. My mentor and friend Grace has been seeing more of me recently and I've been partaking in all sorts of crazy. One of the candid ones is making and designing the cupcakes above. Grace's career as an event designer and florist makes her creative mind work overtime 24/7. Its amazing the things that come out of a few trips around town and some objects laid before her. Granted her job isn't all fun and games, but it's a beautiful kind of crazy, a fulfilling kind of crazy. When all is said and done, isn't this what us creative people strive for?
I've been blogging for just a short while now, but what I can say honestly drives me to this type of community are the amazing creative individuals that are found on this corner of the internet. Be it OOTDs, Baking, drawing, or even Crafting; we are a unique breed of creative. Everyone is different in their own way and we don't apologize for it, we celebrate it! This post is to declare this very point: we are creative.
I encourage you to take time out of your day and meditate on the way that your creative mind has changed and set you away from the rest as an individual. You'll be amazed at how profound this simple truth has impacted your life. Surround yourself with creativity and relish in the free amazing gift that life has given you.
I hope everyone is having a Blessed Sunday today! As Sunday is usually a Sabbath of rest and rejuvenation I thought it would be a perfect day to tell you about my Blooming Tea experience.As you know, I just finished reading my lovely book Meditation with Tea by Diana Rosen. One of the chapters was on conversation over tea and understanding the ones you love in this bonding experience.
A tea that was recommended was blooming teas. This is because it takes an estimated 30 minutes to completely bloom and give you a proper steeped tea. From my earlier Classic Savory Tea Haul, I got the Sprinkled Stars. After a long day I took out my mini tea cups and put the bud into my French Press. I had my regular teapot filled with hot water to keep adding water to my French Press.
I picked this tea because of the beautiful floral notes in the description.Easter Lilies, Jasmine, and more recently Osmanthus have been favorite flowers of mine. As Eugene and I sipped the tea in it's different stages, we really appreciate the variety of flavors it gave. It really did put us in a good mood and made us comfortable enough to talk about deeper things like our future plans and ambitions. It was a nice break from our current busy schedule and emptied wallets. At the final stages of the bloom, the Othmanthus blossoms rose out blending it's floral creamy taste to the mix.
I know that most people dread having blooming teas because they're a bit showy and need special pots to enjoy them completely. But I have to tell you not to be afraid of it, anything thats clear will do, life a glass mug or in my case my $4 mini French Press from Ikea. Treat yourself to the pleasure of relaxing with tea and try something different by partaking in conversation with a loved one over a blooming tea. Its great to meditate alone, but every now and then meditating with others is empowering and rejuvenating.
