Thoughts: The Muddy Middles

I'm a type A personality, I always have been. Infact, I can credit most of my will power to my stubbornness. I hate to leave things unfinished, and it kills me to see things never push through. I've been called obsessed and I have to admit that most of the time I am.

Currently I'm in a time in my life where all of these little wonders are working their magic. Just a little bit goes a long way and soon enough all that hard work will pay off. Getting started can be hard, but what about the in between stages? The parts that can jump up, slow down, or even worse: plateau.

I'm in the muddy middles of life right now. The parts you don't foresee in your grand scheme of things. The element that no one ever considers when it comes down to just about every aspect of life. If you know what I'm talking about then you know: it really sucks... This is that part of the forest where you feel like you've lost your way. Or that part of the GPS where you question exactly how far was I into that mile? Its tough, and very cruel, its when doubt starts to crawl up on you. When it comes down to all the terrible mess that might come from it: this is only the middle.

That's exactly right; cry when you can, wallow if you must, but all you need to consider about this is that it's simply just the middle of the ride. The destination is something brighter and 100 percent you! This is all a no brainer, but I wanted to share something that I had to learn the hard way this week and that was that things will get when they need to get done. There's nothing you could do be it the temptation of all nighters and neglecting other things that can change the amount of time that it takes to get certain things done.

The hardest part was to cherish these days. With the rain that comes on any persons life comes a better tomorrow. I accept to cherish the pain. I savor the trudge through the peril. These choices within themselves are a comfort simply because I'm who I am. So anyone having a terrible week, or a problem that won't easily be fixed, I want you to know: You are where you need to be, be brave, it's worth it.

-Stef